Hi, My name is Fadia Kader, and Im an Ex-Sadist…..

What is sadistic behavior consisting of?

The need to reach out to someone so unattainable, you claim your comfort level in the “situation” is merely casual and therefor a relaxed state of mind. We pretend not to give the matter at hand importance because of our own fear/commitment, rejection, and comfort. At the end of the day you realize that in all reality you are the true sadist.

Although he holds the whip, you’re the one that has tied yourself up to a man that does not want to be tied down. Ultimately, YOU have provided the rope and the handcuffs and the threw away the keys. You have shown your winning hand, and disappointed when you have lost….[ what do you expect if you give it your all and ask for nothing in return?!?!?]

You find the pleasure in the pain, your heart skips a beat at the mere sight of he, his touch is warm, his words are cold, and yet you still scream out for more.Self inflicting pain, verbal and emotional abuse is the worst. You know what’s best at the end, when something is not right, just move on from it… 3 strikes is too many now-days… 2nd chances are only acceptable in special circumstances, but thats a whole other topic.

My thing is, if your not ready to catch me then don’t chase me… and vice versa. I have put my sadistic day’s wayyyyyyyyyyy wayyyyyyyyy wayyyyyyyyyyyy behind me.I find no pleasure what so ever in that kind of chase. I refuse to attach myself to a man that is unattachable…Pain is pleasure or so they say…but in my life that only applies to the physical and not the emotional *devilish smile*

So with all that said.. basically GIVE IT UP.

[ this is dedicated to Mr.M ]

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Posted at : December 5th, 2007 - 7:55 pm
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