Skully at Janelle Monae’s Birthday party at the ROYAL

Yes. Im being put through some tests.

I don’t allow myself to dwell in my misery for more than 8hours [ if even that]. I pretty much figure out a way quickly to get out of any funk I’m in . So these past couple months have been Uber-Hard on your girl. I quit my job on the sole basis of pursuing for ME. As in working for self. After my initial marketing campaign landed my old [nyc] employer a 5 million account with Microsoft, I thought to myself, there is no reason why I’m not even getting 10% of that or even having my own company and recruiting that kind of business my way [also issues with “she-devil” didn’t help me staying there too].

Anyways… off topic. Basically with sacrifice comes gain, but it couldn’t come fast enough, but I cant rush success, it will come when its supposed to. When I start rushing it is when its never going to happen… but times are very interesting. Today has been one of the roughest in a LOOOOOONNNNNGGGG time. Well lets start with yesterday, I get a call from Jen telling me Skully [ My doggy] is throwing up, not eating, and just basically constantly sleeping and not moving. So I pick her up, and immediately I see shes mos def not OK. I take her to the emergency room, and basically she has RENAL FAILUER: aka KIDNEY FAILURE, but not just any failure, SEVERE. So… after$300 worht of check ups, Im having to make the decesion to keep my dog in the hospital while they IV her up, and hydrate her and attempt to get her back to normal [ all this with no gurantees that it wont happen again in 2 days or a year or 5 years] or put her to sleep.

sigh* It was all good just a week ago>>>>>

And now this is what my baby is looking like….

sigh* to top it off while I’m at the vet, I get a call that a friend passed. Its like ..”Word.. are we Testing up there to see what else I can handle?”

Anyways.. about $1,100 out… and Skully is worth every damn red cent. Regardless if she makes it out of this or not, this is the closest im having to a kid anytime soon. I refuse to just give up on her like that.

I just know that I cant have kids. I really broke down at the Vet, I can only imagine what it would be like if I had kids and something happened to them, I think I would really go crazy then.

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Posted at : December 10th, 2007 - 4:09 pm
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